Happy Halloween! Last Friday was the ward trunk or treat and I must say, even though no other adults really dressed up, I couldn't wait for our costumes :) And we're carving a pumpkin tonight and I can't wait. But I really want to start by thanking Heather for her past couple blog posts. I'm so glad for such amazing friends in my life who help me stay happy. Reading her post was the culmination of some realizations I've had this week. So heads up, this post is full of ramblings.
Yesterday I went visiting teaching, and I'm ashamed to admit this, but it was probably the first time I was truly excited to go. Before it felt like such an obligation - I always enjoyed it once I got myself to go, but I think Provo wards are just...different. Here, and I would assume anywhere besides Provo where the ward turns over in 6 months, it just feels a little more real. And I was excited to have a reason to leave the house ;)
Anyway, we went and I couldn't wait to meet more sisters in this ward (I even made cookies to share. Seriously, I was excited). As we went around visiting and talking with sisters, I kept realizing just how blessed I am. With the free time I've had lately and feeling a little cooped up, I've realized I have a tendency to fall into a self-pity mode. Pathetic, I know. But there's no better remedy than visiting someone who puts my little worries into perspective.
For example, I sometimes (ok, maybe more than sometimes) think woe is me for having to live with in-laws, but while we were talking with sisters, I realized, and it was even vocalized by my companion, how lucky my children are to have Gail and Ernest as grandparents. I felt like kicking myself for ever feeling bad about "having to live with the in-laws." Yes, it's difficult sometimes, but only because I'm a tad bit independent and suffer from slight social anxiety. But goodness gracious, how lucky I am that I have such loving in-laws who are more than accommodating and so happy to have us here, not to mention the financial relief they've given Jeff and I by living here before we head upside down into debt for med school next year. Then, of course, I thought of my own parents and how excited and lucky I am to have my mom come visit me in a week (Wha-whooo!) and that my mom is in a position to be able to fly across the country to visit (thanks dad).
And aren't birthdays just the best?! I got a card and gift from my Grandma Dalton and the sweetest phone call yesterday from my Grandma and Grandpa Mower. Before I even hung up the phone I was in tears. It's truly amazing how much love and appreciation one can feel for family when they move across the country :)
The weather even had a birthday present for me! I'm totally jealous of the snow storm that hit Utah last week, and until this week it has still been sweaty hot in Florida. But these past couple days, I think because of Hurricane Sandy, it has been exceptionally cold, and I love it. There's nothing better than placing chilly hands on my face to warm them up. I even had hot chocolate for breakfast yesterday! I put socks on for the first time Monday, and as I dressed in fall clothes (well, my idea of fall clothes) with a sweater, scarf, and my favorite boots, everything all of a sudden felt normal again. Totally weird, but I love being chilly.
I think part of why I miss the cold is because I'm realizing that Jeff and I's first little chapter together has come and gone. I so cherish those Christmas mornings waking up in our tiny apartment, feeling like we were the only two in Provo, and just enjoying the still of winter. We would sit on our little couch with only our Christmas tree lit, open gifts, and then enjoy the quiet of the valley as we drove to my parents so early on Christmas morning. And maybe that's why I was so emotional when I talked to my grandparents who are reaching the end of their own chapters. Sometimes it's hard to move on to other adventures when the one before was so wonderful.
Another reason I'm so emotional might have to do with being 30 weeks pregnant ;) Can't wait to hold that little pot of gold.